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Lamar Odom gets candid about drug use, cheating on Khloe Kardashian

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Lamar Odom airs out his dirty laundry.

In US Weekly’s upcoming Friday release, the former NBA baller opens up about the night he was found unresponsive in a Las Vegas brothel. “I was home by myself. Bored. I wanted to get out and have a good time. Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all. I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That’s all,” the 37-year-old admitted. “When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth.”

Previously reported, despite an on-going divorce, then-wife, Khloe Kardashian dropped everything to rush to his side. “It was definitely a moment of relief. I didn’t even know what had just happened. I mean, I’m a big strong dude who has made it to the highest level of doing what he loves. And now I can’t walk or talk,” Odom recalled. “She was the first thing I saw. She said, ‘Hi, Mookah.’ ‘Mookah’ is a name my mother used to call me. She said it to let me know I wasn’t dead. She played a major role in me getting my memory back. She would bring pictures of my mother and my grandmother. I kept thinking, ‘Am I paralyzed forever? Am I mute forever?’ It was scary s—.”

However, according to Odom, this certainly wasn’t his first rodeo. In fact, he’d been doing drugs behind Kardashian’s back for years. “I was hiding it for a while, but then I got frustrated and was like, ‘F–k it.’ Around two years before we split up [in December 2013], I was in the man cave she had made for me and she caught me. She was disappointed. So was I. The sad thing about it is, I don’t know if I was disappointed because I was actually doing the drug or because she caught me,” he says. “She knew I was doing cocaine the whole time after that. It was my drug of choice. I’m not going to say she accepted it because that would be the wrong word. Tolerated would be a better word.”

As for what pushed him to the edge, he said: “When I became Khloe Kardashian’s man and on TV, it made me look more enticing. People who didn’t even know basketball would approach me because they knew Lammy. Bitches and THOTs came out of the woodwork,” he tells the mag. “If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my dick in my pants.”

Meanwhile, things worsened after Kardashian called it quits on their marriage. “That’s where me and my friend Jamie [Sangouthai], God bless the dead, turned the drug use up to another level. The ‘don’t give a f—k’ place,” he says “I was in a very dark place and very confrontational. I wasn’t trying to repair my marriage; I was just trying to get high,” he says. “My life was all about drugs at that point.”

Though the KUWK star placed their divorce proceedings on hold pending his full recovery, all that changed after Odom was caught drinking at L.A.’s Beverly Center — forcing Kardashian’s hand to refile for divorce in 2016.

Today, Odom revealed he’s on a different path, “Living sober, meaning no drugs, is a great feeling. Being in the moment is important—how you react, respond, create,” he explained. “If I would have done coke last night, you would have gotten some dickhead here trying to get out of here fast. But you’re getting Lamar now.”

“I’m a walking miracle. I had no choice but to become stronger,” added Odom. “I’m here talking to you. So, I guess I’m winning.

“Faith got me through.”

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