Jay-Z and Beyoncé (Photo: [email protected])

Jay-Z shocked many of his fans and contemporaries with his brutal honesty and revealing introspection in the “Footnotes for 4:44” short film, which features appearances by Kenya Barris, Chris Paul, Kendrick Lamar, Jesse Williams, Omari Hardwick, Anthony Anderson, Aziz Ansari, Chris Rock, Rel Smith, Will Smith and Meek Mill, among others.

Hov and the guest celebs talked about their relationships and backgrounds. But Jay-Z took it to another level when he detailed how his “happy” marriage with Beyoncé was, at first, a facade, and how things went wrong before getting right.

“What I thought when I met my dad was ‘I’m free to love now.’ But how are you going to do it? You want to do it. I get it. But how are you going to do it? You’ve never done this before. No one informed you how to do this. You don’t even have the tools to do it. But you’re going to do it because you’re ready. That’s why I say ‘you mature faster than me, I wasn’t ready.’ This is my real life.

“I just ran into this place, and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn’t totally built on the 100 percent truth. And then it starts cracking. Then things start happening that the public can see.

“Then we had to get to a point of ‘OK, tear this down and let’s start from the beginning.’ … it’s hard. Remember I’m from Marcy Projects, I’ve been shot at, all kinds of ish but nothing is harder than this. By far It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And most people. Most humans, us, we’re not willing to put ourselves through that. Most people give up.”

Jay also speaks about a time when he was on a boat and how he surprised himself when he was upset Bey had to go.

“I was on a boat and she was like ‘Man I don’t even feel like this. What is happening to my body right now? And I was like ‘don’t go.’ I was like ‘Did I just say [that]?’ All this is new to me. Like, ‘don’t leave.'”

Jay finally had to come to the realization that he and his wife had to get very real with one another if they were going to save their marriage.

“We’ve been in that space where we got to a place where we were like in order for this to work it can’t be fake, not one ounce. I’m not saying it wasn’t uncomfortable, because obviously, it was, but because we’ve been doing it so long it was less uncomfortable.”

What do you think about Hov admitting his vulnerabilities and shortcomings? Were you surprised?

 

Terry Shropshire

I'm a lover of words, pictures, people and The Ohio State Buckeyes. A true journalist from the soul.

  • Am a🐍!!!

    Illumination that’s why!

  • Aniyah Sydney Renne Tifari

    Vulnerability….. true love ,the essence of real love.

  • Jocelyn Hawkins

    Jay Z you did good and I’m very proud of you for you are not the only Black Man that is scared of a relationship or marriage. Sometimes it take messing up for a person to straighten up and get it right and with counseling if the persons have to. For if the father was not present or not healthy in his relationship then how would the son or daughter know how to be healthy in their relationship with having the help to get healthy. Again I’m very proud of you and Beyounce because you will never find love like she has for you. All you have to do is look at all you guys pictures and videos and you can see the true love Beyounce has for you. What Lou Rawles say Youy never find a love like this ” you have it with Beyoy. I wish nothing but the best for you and your family. God Bless !!! Jocelyn. H.

    • britishrose

      chile you dumb as a doe doe bird if you think jayz , got these kind of issues he stateing , it was staged fool every word is orchestrated by his team of brilliant , media attention team . he has been busted . staging that elevator scene . how come he didnt tell the public how he fired her father and lied on him and said he stole form beyonce to gain ocntrol of her money? you dam right he suffereing but not for a bad marriage . , they are a money hungery team him and her . and they create these stories to sell concerts , they make their leagend of fans thirst . reason you want see those babies . okkkkk if and when he hsow those kids he will be done sold out several concert ,, people buy tickets if their is mysterie surround a celeb DONT YOU KNOW THIS FOOL

  • what?why

    Jay Z’s suspected behavior has been well documented over the years. This is not shocking . It is shocking to think that he believed he was being covert but that was only in his own mind. He is a serial cheater and hopefully he is getting psychiatric help. Egomaniac

    • britishrose

      JAYZ has had no female come forward and say she was with him. the children he has was before beyonce which is two boys, he has paid those mother off to shut up . he has never cheated on her , with camera on him constantly tabloids would have busted him long time ago if any female was seen with him . he is a mastermind at lieing bout his status , involking anger and sympathy to sell records everyone in hollywood does this . who cares if he cheated , cause no man gonna come forward , he is just capitalizing on her lemnade video , which started the rumprs . who in hell gonna cheat on beyonce . she is the top chick in the world . he want to remove the almight title off of beyonce . she has gain a lot of hate for this so called media fixation with her . cult following she has . people are call her queen bee , saint etc . so for him to show she is normal , and not above hurt , and bad relationship issues . that makes her fans feel sorry for her and his fans cheer him for being a hero. by admitting his cheating … get it ??? its all to stay on top of the game .. celebrityhood is a game and well paid one . any story you hear is fake . and t hey pay the paparzzi to stage a freenzie or to film them on boats or out . kim k does it regularly ,, she showed the m how to do it … he need to sit his aging rapper but down . cause age is gonna be his worst enemy . he better sell a few more albums . while his wife is force to rest up from carrying twins . the money machine has to keep going . and so all this rumor of cheating was created way back to keep you questing his moves perfect he fooled yall again

      • what?why

        Google 1Oak, New York, service girl with jay Z …

  • britishrose

    lie lies lies jayz is trying to sell records , notice how he and beyonce always creat drama to sell records right before a concert , he just announce hes going on tour? with 44.4 album , the twins is also a reason , he diverts attention off them. and he will not sell a photo of them. which makes people want to see him he help stage that elevator fight too , what hotel security you think can even get ahold of tap of elevator rides ? and not be dragged in to court and several fired? then sell it to tlc? come on bro . get it together jayz, you cant fool everyone . most of them die hard fans really believe this sh..t too every body wasnt born intelligent cause celebrities who stage all these scenarios would be broke if we all had common sense . . nobody care in hollywood unless your drama. flava flav showed you how thirst we are as fans. i never bought into it , cause i know these people have no other talents but to scam fans . real house wives of atlanta drove the nail home for me . from apollo being filmed yet committing crimes? to kenya fake fight with porsha, its acting and bad acting at that . .. its not like the old day of hollywood anymore . you got reality stars dominateing tv now and what do they do ? create drama to get paid . its all about who at the top of the news chain . some times they have messy divorces just to be on the tabloids lol when kim k get desperat she gonna divorce kanye , and its gonna be drama big time

  • britishrose

    any one in the streets or know the streets know jayz symbolize a pimp not a husband , pimp dont cheat they get as much sex as they want cause they got money , and a slave female who will , do what ever to get them money . all the videos he and beyonce has done symbolized him as a pimp like figure . and men love it . gays love it , and lebian females eat it up . this is why she has fan base so big , its not due to her music at all ., she kept the blonde image whcih made whites respect her . ummm? so the dumb blonde slave ho .. is the image she got , and they call that art? cause for a thirst america this is what we like , he status come from her ability to camoflaug her real self , no one really know what she thinks . cause shes so controlled by him . same thing kendue tried on mary j blige and she was like NOBODYS PIMPIN ME . of course she is older than beyonce . beyonce is living in her 20-s in her mind and jayz is older and wiser , he calls all the shots , and anytime u up under a person that much , heads gonna roll one day .. and she just got tired of him minding her money ., and demanded he go out and sell records . but he couldnt do that without lieing about cheating first .