The “Last Night” hitmaker tragically lost his former girlfriend in November 2018 but since then says he has become a “lot more present” with his kids.
Diddy — who has Christian, 21, Jessie, 12, and D’Lila Star, 12, with the late model — previously praised his ex-girlfriend for doing a “great job” in raising their children and noted that their twin daughters D’Lila Star and Jessie James are just like her.
Speaking in the May issue of Essence magazine, he said: “Before this, I was a part-time father, you know? My family was always first, but there are countless times when I chose to work over everything else.
He also opened up about Kim Porter’s final message.
He continued: “Three days before she passed, she wasn’t feeling well. She had the flu, and she sent the kids over to my house so they wouldn’t get sick. One night I was checking on her, and she was like, ‘Puffy, take care of my babies.’ She actually said that to me before she died.”
And after her tragic death, the “I’ll Be Missing You” musician — who also helped to raise Porter’s son Quincy, 27, from a past relationship — says he was reminded of her important words when he was left “crying out to God.”
He added: “It was like some superhero s—. I ain’t even gonna lie. On some level, I knew she was training me for this. I knew that I had to be ready to do whatever I was supposed to do if something like this ever happened. There was screaming and crying when I heard the news, of course, but I had to ask myself, ‘What would Kim do?’ I was scared, and I was crying out to God — and to her — and almost immediately Kim’s voice kicked in, and I could hear her saying, ‘Make sure you take care of my babies.'”
Diddy credits his children for teaching him how to cope with their mother’s passing, as he says they were taught “how to deal with death” from Kim.
He said: “One day I asked them how are they being so strong. They said that, in a weird way, their mother had taught them how to deal with death. Now, ironically, they are teaching me how to deal with Kim’s passing.”