Hip-hop artist Kid Cudi, real name Scott Mescudi, has revealed that he’s struggling with “depression and suicidal urges.”
In a deeply personal message to fans on Facebook, the Cleveland native made the shocking announcement he’s entered rehab, writing, “It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans. Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.”
The 32-year-old continued, “I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. There’s a raging violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it.
“I can’t make new friends because of it. I don’t trust anyone because of it and I’m tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared, I’m sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I’m sorry. Its time I fix me. I’m nervous but I’m a get through this.”
He concluded, “I won’t be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery. If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and I’ll be looking forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs. Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like s–t, I feel so ashamed. I’m sorry.”
Though Cudi’s decision will conflict with his scheduled festival performances during Complexcon alongside Skrillex, Travis Scott and Virgil Abloh on November 5 and 6 — as well as his highly anticipated Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin album release, we’re happy to see him seeking the help he needs. Show him some love and support in the comment section below.
*If you or someone you know is struggling with depression and suicidal urges, call 1-800-273-8255 for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. For those outside of the U.S., please visit the International Association for Suicide Prevention for a database of resources.
